I had a twin, a sister or something.. I felt an odd sense of connection towards her, similar to the emotional connection a mother has to her child. But she wasnt my mother, not an aunt, not a cousin. I remember, she had a baby, but I do not recall seeing the baby within the room, only the 'knowing' of it. She went through the same thing as before, she was attacked by 2 girls although I can't remember why, first she was insulted by them and then the next time she went out I knew she would get beaten by them. When I 'remembered' what happened, I begun packing my purse to run away. What was I running from? Why? Why did I want to be prepared, what come for me? Especially after she was the one to get beat up and not me? What was I anxious of? Anxious?.. No. I was packing, planning and calculating with a specific kind of precision. I did everything with an unfamilar sense of calmness, no anxiety in my heart, no rushing, no overthinking, I was standing there packinf my purse while planning. It's hard to believe it was my dream, and that, that calculating persons body I lived in, was me. It did not feel like me, I never hesitated. Not once was I anxious. A detached planner I suppose? I do not understand, that person 'me' was never ME. I could never say such crude words, if it wasnt me then who was it? Was I simply just observing somebody else's body, emotions, thinking patterns and actions? I can not understand, I cannot. After that happened, I noticed that her knee was scraped or something. She was in her room at the end of her bed on the floor crying, hugging her legs and her face near her knee, and I was kneeling beside her comforting her quietly, just looking at her, while also waiting until our 'mom' was out of the room at the same time. I do not know why, but the supposed 'me' knew, I shared her thought process somehow but fail to recall any of it. I went closer to her, with a blank face, and bluntly said "you should have killed them instead." With an eerily calmness, I realize that there was no hesitation in my voice, no anxiousness, no uncertainty, and most of all, my heart remained still, completely unmoved. Then something felt off, something changed.. Maybe the atmosphere? Or perhaps just the energy around me? Nevertheless, my intuition fired off, demanding attention from me. I got up, and stepped 2 feet away from her, when suddenly I felt a strang, yet strong sense of certainty. "your not real, are you?" Like she wasnt my sister, like she wasn't real. Because I somehow managed to realize that this had happened before, it was familiar, and despite this realization I never came to the conclusion that I was dreaming. Then something changed, the dimension? I don't know how to explain, I remember 'dimension'. Not sure. But then I woke up.
Your dream is rich with symbolism and emotions, and it appears to touch on themes of identity, connection, foreboding, and self-awareness. Here's an interpretation of the different elements:
Twin/Sibling Connection: The appearance of a twin or sister-like figure might symbolize a part of yourself or a relationship you feel is deeply connected to your identity. This connection, akin to a mother's bond with her child, suggests a protective, nurturing aspect or an aspect of self-care and introspection.
The Absent Baby: The baby that you "knew" was there without seeing could symbolize untapped potential, new beginnings, or vulnerabilities within yourself or someone close to you. It highlights something of importance that is present but not fully acknowledged or understood.
Attack by Two Girls: The repeated attacks your sister faced could represent perceived threats or challenges in your life. The insults and violence might symbolize inner or external conflicts you're aware of but have not directly confronted.
Running Away & Planning: The act of packing your purse and preparing to run away with a calculated calmness illustrates a strong sense of self-preservation and foresight. It suggests a part of you is aware of something inevitable or dangerous, and you're mentally and emotionally preparing to face or escape it.
Detached Planner Persona: The detached and unemotional planner you describe yourself as in the dream could represent a side of you that operates on logic and calculation rather than emotion. This could indicate your subconscious grappling with a need to integrate rationality into your emotional life, or vice versa.
Sister's Injury & Comforting Actions: Kneeling beside and comforting your sister shows empathy and a desire to heal or support yourself and others. However, the advice to "kill them instead" illustrates inner conflict or repressed anger—not necessarily advocating violence but signaling a subconscious need to confront issues head-on.
Realization & Feeling of Unreality: The questions about your sister's reality and the eeriness of the atmosphere may hint at existential questions about your identity or life circumstances. There seems to be an exploration of what is genuine or illusory in your life, possibly leading to self-discovery or a deeper understanding.
Shifts in Dimension & Awareness: The dream's changes in dimension could symbolize transitions in your awareness, thinking patterns, or perspective on life. This suggests a shift in how you perceive yourself and your circumstances.
Overall, this dream seems to delve into the complexities of your inner world, examining hidden aspects of your personality or identity that you might not fully understand. It encourages exploration and confrontation of your fears, desires, and the delicate balance between emotion and logic. Consider reflecting on these elements and how they might relate to your waking life experiences or unresolved conflicts.